Spread your love like a fever.

Okay dip-tards, one last time for good measure. Then this fucker is getting deleted.

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 03:28:30 GMT

justapeaceluvr: I fucking hate everyone. I swear.

justapeaceluvr: I made a BIG ASS post... TWICE! about my new LJ name and my new screen name.

justapeaceluvr: And everyone but like 2 people ignored it. And people keep messaging me or replying to my thing and being like "Who is this?"... and I'm like, "Dammit - GIVE ME ATTENTION!!"...

justapeaceluvr: Anyway.

skrinkskrod: HaHa

Yeah, that's right guys. All of you people who have NO idea who it is that is leaving random notes in your LJ or why I'm not on my usual screen name as much as I normally am... HERE'S THE REASON:

justapeaceluvr is now my ID for the following: Yahoo/Yahoo mail, Xanga, LJ, and AIM. Mmmkay? Do I sound bitchy? Yes. Yes I do... I'm going crazy, and I need to stop. Sorry. HaHa. :-D

I'm posting this again, seeing as no one noticed before & don't know why I'm commenting on their LJs

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 21:01:30 GMT

I GOT IN A FIGHT LAST NIGHT! I REPEAT - I FOUGHT WITH A BLACK DUDE AT A PARTY!!!

Okay, so does this sound a little abnormal for a happy peaceful
Kristen? Yes! Yes it does... One of my friends is dating this guy and
he was being a dick just because she was partying and having a good
time. He was all up in her face, like IN her face and this isn't the
first time I have seen him treat her that way... So I told that damn
insecure guy to fuck off and not to talk to one of my girl friends like
that. I told this bitch off hardcore. YELLING and everything! OMG! It
was kinda sexy... All my friends who have known me forever had their
jaws dropping and couldn't believe it. Holy cow it was hawt.

Other than that, I had an exciting drunk escapade... full of fun and
dancing to Led Zep and fantasizing about Robert Plant with the fellow
partiers... Mmmmm... BIG hair and tight pants. Grrr baby!

I stayed the night over at Ken's. We decided that we love our
arrangement currently. It's really pretty cool and I'm digging his
friendly company.

Anyway, I got all new screen names and a new email adress so that all
of my stuff would match. For AIM, LJ, Xanga, and Yahoo... my name is
now: justapeaceluvr

Hooray! It fits me much better and I feel a little less OCD having
everything the same. Yay! I'm going to add you guys onto my LJ, but
don't forget to add me back.

justapeaceluvr

Heh heh.

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 15:19:42 GMT

Can I just say how proud I am of myself?!

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 19:49:11 GMT

I'm really happy. And I feel so relieved. Whenever I get really pissed or upset, it usually takes a day or two of intense thinking to calm me back down and get me in my positive mindset again.

So last night that prick (ex-bf) kept calling me and leaving me messages, begging my forgiveness. Finally I got the guts to call him back. At first I thought maybe that was a horrible idea, but then it ended up being the best thing that could have ever happened.

Ring ring. He answers, he tells me he's happy that I'm "not mad" and that I "still wanna talk". Ha.

HA!

So I said, yeah. I'm not mad anymore. But I do however just want to let you know that I never want to talk to you again. And he says, "Oh no, you're not serious are you?"

DEAD fucking serious. I told him that he doesn't deserve to talk to me let alone even breathe the same air as I do. And that he's not worth any of my time or effort anymore. I told him that I hope he feels 10 times worse than I ever did by being with him for the rest of his life for fucking up so royally. He asked my forgiveness, I told him he was sooo forgiven. But not to ever call me, email me, or try and get in touch with me in any way ever again.

He was whining. I bet he expected me to do what I normally did, and take the guilt trip and forgive him and then go running back. Nope. Not this time. I told him that I hope it was worth getting off and fucking that other bitch now that he lost the only good person he will ever have had if he keeps up his shitty attitude and outlook.

I wished him luck in the future. And I really meant it... because he is smart. And talented. But he hates himself. He hates life. I don't know why. And I don't know why I ever thought someone like him could be good for someone like me. I told him that I have always been too good for him and it felt so amazing to say it and mean it.

I feel so amazing. And strong. And positive. And I feel like one day I will be treated like a queen by someone who is perfect for me, because I deserve nothing less. I deserve to have someone who will put forth as much effort and love as I do into my relationships.

I seriously can't remember ever feeling that happy. It was liberating and made me feel like nothing could bring me down. I spent a year and a half in chains feeling like I was the piece of shit when all along it was him. It's funny how things work that way. And it's fucking amazing that every day brings more clarity and more happiness, no matter what. No one deserves to feel badly about themselves. Not anyone.

Before I hung up, I thanked him for giving me the best learning experience of my life. I honestly meant it too. I hurt for so long, but him breaking me down and attempting to ruin me actually had the opposite effect. It actually ended up building me up and made me realize how strong I am. And how to feel good about myself. It took 2 years to learn this, but I'm really glad I did.

So cheers to Tyler the ultimate bastard... he taught me so much about myself that I don't think I could ever be more grateful.

Or any happier.

My my my....

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 05:39:59 GMT

I already feel a lot better. And a little more at peace with myself... Time is on my side.

If you don't like my new icon... you're going to Hell.

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 15:25:54 GMT

BRMC has a really awesome lyric that I can relate to.

"Does it feel too real? To learn that all the things you love and fear are the same?"

The one good thing about last night...

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 00:05:44 GMT

I decided I have a new man-crush at Rocky.

Rodney has got to be one of the sexiest guys I have ever seen. *Drool*

The one good thing about today: I got a new shirt that says "Her middle name was glamour" Bahahaha. It's so cute, it makes me laugh!

Sandy.

Fri, 05 Nov 2004 06:17:18 GMT

I love you. I'm not trying to be a prick. I'm telling you how I feel. I feel happy with myself and the way everything always pans out. I hope you feel that way too.

!!

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 20:07:02 GMT

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 19:54:57 GMT

Damn hiccups.

Cough cough.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 14:59:03 GMT

Still sick.

The Red Sox won! YAY!

ADAM NEEDS TO CHOKE. Dammit.

No work today... staying home to sleep and get betta.

In newspaper. Bitch is gone so I put on the radio. Woo hoo!

Eep. Bitch is back, I should work on stories... I forgot what my stories are though.

I <3 Fleetwood Mac.

Don't stop thinkin' about tomorrow!

*insert nasty coughing here*

Here's the funny thing of the day:

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 23:36:59 GMT

Here's something that makes me extremely happy: a kid in my math class today was talking about being a courtesy clerk at Albertson's. He was talking about how if it takes too long to find something to put back for a "go-back", he just stashes it behind "the Jesus candles". Bahahaha. Even my math teacher laughed at that one. You know the candles... for shrines. With pictures of Jesus and some even with Mary. Ohhh man. I laughed so hard I coughed.

Let me quote someone fabulous:

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 08:45:48 GMT

"Getting blown off is better than getting blown up. Well I guess sometimes it can feel like getting blown up, but there's always someone to put you back together if that happens."

And in the end, the love you take...

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 00:46:51 GMT

is equal to the love you make.

Woo. Tiresome week.

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 03:42:59 GMT

But I'm still just truckin' along... Too much to say, so I'll just leave it at that.

xoxo guys!

I fell in the airport.

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 02:27:32 GMT

I tipped over in my shoes in the airport yesterday. I fell face first. It was so slow motion that I remember thinking to myself, "Oh man, this is going to suck... how will I recover from the embarassment?".

And then down I went. Only one old man saw. I'm sure he got a good laugh out of it, or at least I hope he did. I wouldn't want to waste a good fall or nothing. Ha!

Adios kiddos!

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 07:10:42 GMT

EARLY tomorrow morning I leave for Chicago. So I won't talk to any of you until I get back on Wednesday, unless you call my cell phone (it will work there! I have nationwide coverage... woo!).

Anyway. I'm really excited if you couldn't tell. I think I really need a vacation. Like really. I was about to become angry at work today. And me angry is pretty akward... and scary? I dunno.

Until next time... take care guys. Don't do anything I wouldn't do. ;-)

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 05:52:36 GMT

I'm going to Chicago from Saturday to Wednesday.

Score.

Shopping and checking out Northwestern... going to the art museum. I'm really effing excited. Maybe I need to just get away for a bit.

P.S.

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 06:38:40 GMT

I don't know why... but I found it extremely amusing to hear Scott say this:

goth8012: I just like the *think think think* cause it makes me feel like Pooh Bear
go go grey girl: hahaha
go go grey girl: THAT WAS SO EFFIN FUNNY

Laugh. Or at least smile..? That was great!

Christopher!!!

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 02:02:55 GMT

I just saw a preview for a comedy-horror flick called something like "Shaun of the Dead"... or something. It's about zombies!!!

See it with me!

Ha.

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 05:24:47 GMT

TIM: did you know christianity has an angel you can pray to when you lose things?

ME: hahaha, no..

ME: then why arent more stoners christians?

ME: bahaha... i pat myself on the back for that one.

P.S. I had a dream the other night that I couldn't remember the username to my yahoo email account... Am I a nerd?

I had a good karma day.

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 05:46:02 GMT

I had a really good day. I never went to school, but I went to work. I left work early to go shopping, and I got 2 shirts and a pair of jeans! Wee! I love getting new clothes.

After I left work, the girl I work with called my cell phone to tell me one of my fave customers brought me a gift!!! He burned me a CD with a bunch of Bob Marley stuff on it!!! What a cool guy, I was so excited! His name is John Lundin, and he always talks music with me... I saw him in Fry's picking out fruit one time and I almost fainted because of his good looks. Whew.

Then another great thing happened... I went to my regular coffee shop and the guy behind the counter said, "Never say die" because he was talking to some lady... then I was like, "Never say never!". And we started talking about Fivel. And how that movie was the greatest ever. I love reminiscing about random shit like that.

I'm so smiley.

If you like the Allman Brothers... marry me. Now.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 16:43:56 GMT

I'm ditching school today to wait for someone to inspect our new pool so that it can be filled this weekend... What a weird reason to ditch, I know. But my parents made me, and I wasn't about to tell them I didn't want to stay home.

My new user icon thing is one of my senior pics. If ya wanna see the others, let me know. They're all blurry, it's a long story. But you get the general idea.

Having a good day everyone? I hope so. <3

My life rocks the effin casbah. (I don't know how to spell that)

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 05:41:40 GMT

Tonight was one of the happiest nights in a long time. I love that I have such a good friend who shares some of the same ambition and self respect that I do. I really admire that.

I'm using a new Aveeno soap... it's making my face so clear and radiant. I want someone to touch it and be like... wow, nice skin... and then smooch it... or something?

Sometimes...

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 05:21:37 GMT

I feel like such a dork.

Your Livejournal Blind Date
LJ Username
Gender
Favorite Color
What you are wearing
Oh look! Your blind date is	griglager
Your date is wearing	a French maid costume and a ball gag
You dine	on stale crackers and Laffy Taffy
Then you spend the next three hours	sitting in complete silence
Before taking you home, your date gives you	a diamond engagement ring
This makes you feel	dirty...in a good way

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